Rainbow Babies: Finding Hope After A Loss

Rainbow babies are born after the loss of a previous child.

A “Rainbow” is a sign of hope after a storm. It means something beautiful came out after a rough and dark time. We lost our first baby when he was six months in the womb. During our routine ultrasound, the doctor saw that he has no life anymore. We knew that he had chromosomal issues during the first trimester. But even if we knew before hand, it is hard to prepare for the worse.

I had to be induced and the labor took 78 hours! I was in the labor room with other expecting moms. I hear them cry in pain and a sound of a crying baby followed afterwards which makes the labor pains all worth it. My labor would be different from them because there will be no crying baby for me.

Those were rough times. But God gave us peace beyond understanding amidst the storm and the pain.

“𝐹𝑜𝓇 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝒸𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓉𝑒𝒹 𝓂𝓎 𝒾𝓃𝓂𝑜𝓈𝓉 𝒷𝑒𝒾𝓃𝑔; 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝓀𝓃𝒾𝓉 𝓂𝑒 𝓉𝑜𝑔𝑒𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇 𝒾𝓃 𝓂𝓎 𝓂𝑜𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇’𝓈 𝓌𝑜𝓂𝒷. 𝐼 𝓅𝓇𝒶𝒾𝓈𝑒 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝒷𝑒𝒸𝒶𝓊𝓈𝑒 𝐼 𝒶𝓂 𝒻𝑒𝒶𝓇𝒻𝓊𝓁𝓁𝓎 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓌𝑜𝓃𝒹𝑒𝓇𝒻𝓊𝓁𝓁𝓎 𝓂𝒶𝒹𝑒, 𝓎𝑜𝓊𝓇 𝓌𝑜𝓇𝓀𝓈 𝒶𝓇𝑒 𝓌𝑜𝓃𝒹𝑒𝓇𝒻𝓊𝓁 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝐼 𝓀𝓃𝑜𝓌 𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝒻𝓊𝓁𝓁 𝓌𝑒𝓁𝓁.” 𝒫𝓈𝒶𝓁𝓂 𝟣𝟥𝟫:𝟣𝟥-𝟣𝟦

When I gave birth, I held my lifeless baby in my palm. I knew God had better plans for my child and for us.

Storms only last for a while but the impact it brings may last for a lifetime. The good news is there is hope after the rain.

Life can be full of challenges but there is hope after the rain.

After the loss, we struggled with a another issue — the journey towards wanting to have a child. This was not easy… We claimed the Lord’s promises:

“𝒯𝓇𝓊𝓁𝓎, 𝓉𝓇𝓊𝓁𝓎, 𝐼 𝓈𝒶𝓎 𝓉𝑜 𝓎𝑜𝓊, 𝒾𝒻 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝒶𝓈𝓀 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝐹𝒶𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝒶𝓃𝓎𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒾𝓃 𝓂𝓎 𝓃𝒶𝓂𝑒, 𝐻𝑒 𝓌𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝑔𝒾𝓋𝑒 𝒾𝓉 𝓉𝑜 𝓎𝑜𝓊.” 𝒥𝑜𝒽𝓃 𝟣𝟨:𝟤𝟥

𝐻𝑒 𝓈𝑒𝓉𝓉𝓁𝑒𝓈 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒸𝒽𝒾𝓁𝒹𝓁𝑒𝓈𝓈 𝓌𝑜𝓂𝒶𝓃 𝒾𝓃 𝒽𝑒𝓇 𝒽𝑜𝓂𝑒 𝒶𝓈 𝒶 𝒽𝒶𝓅𝓅𝓎 𝓂𝑜𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇 𝑜𝒻 𝒸𝒽𝒾𝓁𝒹𝓇𝑒𝓃. 𝒫𝓇𝒶𝒾𝓈𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝐿𝑜𝓇𝒹! 𝒫𝓈𝒶𝓁𝓂 𝟣𝟣𝟥:𝟫

My husband and I would often pray to be given a child. I find myself watching the 700 Club and whenever the hosts will say that they are praying for a woman who is asking for a child, I would touch my womb in tears and claim that the prayers are for me.